Ugly Summer

You and I sit there in the mid-silence and wait for the sun to set.
I waited for you the day after in the same spot like you said you'd be.
I waited and waited and waited, but you didn't appear.
I just wanted to forget about that summer, but I couldn't.

I wanted to forget, but everytime I heard your name, that summer came back.
My friends never let it go. They would always ask how you were.
I would tell them,"I don't know. He doesn't talk to me anymore."
They would say,"I thought you guys hung out over the summer?" and I just cried.

Everyone tried to comfort me, but the hole in my heart just couldn't be healed.
My family even signed me up for a therapist, but I refused to go.
My friends and siblings were all worried, and I said,"I don't need him anymore."
Even though I said that a million times, it was never true.

I've always needed you, and I will never not need you.
Until the day I die, I will need you.
Even when that day comes, I will still need you.
I will always need you....

Forever and for always....

Ugly

I'm horribly horrifyingly sick

I am so sick! I'm also babysitting the cutest girl in the world. She cries too much though. She was sitting in her playpen and she cried herself to sleep it was amazing. We couldn't get her to go to sleep and then she cried and then fell asleep. It's funny how coincidents happen. I am hungry and sick and cold and ugh. Why does it suck so bad to be sick. I hate it. I hate it so much.................................................................................